One Action at a time
Sometimes I get tunnel vision and loose awareness of my life. I always go onto my itunes and listen to this disney classic. It helps me detach myself from my ego and look at everything from a birds perspective or Heaven’s eye. Pun intended 
I have a deck of cue cards on which I have written different affirmations. Couple of years ago, I used to read one every morning.
I found the deck yesterday. I opened it this morning and read out loud:
I can Handle Anything
Bad habits are difficult to break. They creep up like a disease and stick around. Lost in the habit, one looses perspective. The essence of the habit is to seek something. Maybe momentary pleasure, maybe distraction from the real issue.
For me, it is smoking. A habit I had once gotten rid of has come alive in the last couple of months. There is no reason or justification for it. I started with one, two and then started buying packs. Before I knew it, I was taking numerous breaks at work just so I could smoke. Smoking gave me an escape. Escape from the pressures of work and allow me to just take a breather. However, the breather literary killing me.
The result of smoking impacted my gym life AKA cardio (no brainer there)!. During this time, a co-worker offered me a smoke. My eyes locked on the butt sticking out of the pack, I inhaled deeply and said “No”. Upon saying No, I felt a sense of strength. My inner strength and confidence was awakening from its slumber I assume.
I was feeling like crap today. I think the weekend tooks it toll on my body. Even though I was feeling crappy, I was just good enough to squeeze my 15 min cardio. I am happy about that.
Tomorrow the full routine.
In a week full of running around like a headless chicken, cruising in my car has become my time of solitude. I import some relaxing sound tracks, buy me a Cinnamon Dolce Late, lean my seat a little and put my foot on the pedal. The journey is guided by the street lights with the moon as my goal. I yell, rap, sing and dance.
I felt very uncomfortable to do this at first. To the point where I would break out in a sweat. But after a while I got used to it.
It is always fun to laugh at yourself. Life should never get serious.
In a rush to leave work, I zoom through traffic, ignoring the people around me. As I was driving through a street, a couple of people were waving from a bridge. I am quiet certain that they were not waving at someone in particular as they were on a bridge and the traffic had eased. I high beamed, honked, stuck my hand out and waved. Good to say Hello to a stranger.
In my busy day doing a million task, I never take out time for myself. Take time out to do nothing.
For the last couple of months I have let go of my daily meditation practice. Today I did my 10 minute meditation. Felt really good to be at peace with all that is around me. Meditation is my tool against the bad days and good days. There is no objective or goal of meditation. It is to help you with your mental chatter and the non stop mental clutter that blocks your awareness.
Sit for 10 minutes and focus on your breathing. Its easier than it sounds but its well worth it.
You will get told No a million times. Maybe bajillion times. But remember that every No is one step closer to Yes. Case and point; I called about 15 people who hung up on me until the 16th one was interested in talking with me.